Tonight I thought I’d send out a little blog about making something out of nothing, hence the title. I’m off to a great start.
Look, we’ve all been there; a day or two or eight late on grocery shopping. In all honesty I haven’t been feeling up to going to town anyways. My dizziness has been more than less, I’ve had pretty constant headaches, but worst of all my fatigue has been huge. It could be weather changes, it could be stress, it could just be because I have POTS. Either way, to put it into perspective, we are out of milk, peanut butter, and now bread. I’m down to the last few scoops of coffee, so the time is nearing.
I’ve been playing a little game of make food out of ingredients I have on hand. It’s kind of a fun game, all things considered. When I was growing up, sometimes for dinner we would have what my mom called ‘well there’s’. Because it went like this… “well, there’s tuna, mac and cheese, leftover spaghetti, salad, leftover hamburgers, fixins for nachos or quesadillas, or frozen pizza.” It was generally done when the fridge needed leftovers cleaned out, or mom had too many appointments or worked too many hours in the day to also cook an entire meal.
Essentially, we’ve been having ‘Well There’s’ for a few days now. I’m pretty proud of myself though. I had two old bananas which became banana-oat muffins. They were not light, fluffy or moist, because remember, no milk or cream. I then proceeded to eat four muffins for breakfast/lunch that day.
Another day I made ziti pasta- ish. No meat, but I had marinara which I mixed with cream cheese and macaroni noodles then baked with some shredded cheese on top. I did manage to take chicken out the other day which then became chicken, rice and zucchini (because I had one sad little zucchini alone in the fridge veggie drawer). The last of the salad veggies have been chopped and eaten already.
Today I made homemade pizza because I had flour, yeast, a jar of pizza sauce and mozzarella. Yay, pizza. It’s not amazing, but it is edible and the hard-as-a-rock-banana-oat-muffins are gone.
In the midst of running out of groceries, other things continue to replenish. You see, my chickens are still laying eggs everyday, so eggs are plentiful. My lettuce is growing like a weed in my Aerogarden on the counter. I know this is a little cheesy and silly, but it is a good reminder that when you feel like resources within yourself are depleting, God is always providing in other ways. Sometimes I feel like physically I’m losing it with leg pain, hip pain, headaches for days, weakness, fatigue and dizziness, but mentally I am still growing and making progress. God is still using me.
Some days I feel like I’m flourishing, doing great, helping others and being a productive member of society. Some days I feel like God is using me to make something out of nothing.
Just my little Tuesday evening thoughts.