A valuable lesson I’ve learned since this whole POTS diagnosis and life change is this: to see growth, we must look at a larger section of time. Everything is trickier and harder and takes longer. Even the POTS specialist I saw said I could gradually add minutes onto my recumbent biking over years. He said the word ‘years’. That should have struck me at the time as just how slow any change happens with my body now. For some reason I’ve had to be reminded of that sentence by Tom several times when I am trying to make a change quickly or accomplish something.
In my continued pattern of being open and truly honest with my lovely followers, this next picture will show my weight. There was a time that I would be mortified to show my weight to someone. Ironically, at that time I weighed much less than I weigh now. Life is weird, y’all. Why do we focus on such stupid and silly things? Everyone can see with their eyes what a person looks like, why the number matters or mattered, I may not understand now. I’ve moved on to new things I try to hide. Ha. Like struggling with anger or self worth issues, but we are a strong group of people. I talk to my chronically ill friends all the time. Strength and encouragement from each other can do wonders. Accountability is big too, and even just having the strength to write about certain struggles is progress.
On to my mini-victory. As I was saying, I realized that I was looking in one-month increments to see victory or success, but that plan was flawed. Once I changed to a three-month segment, I was easier able to see progress that I could be proud of.
Look! That might just look like a line to some of you, but to me it looks like I’m doing something. Look at me, doing a thing. Over the last three months I have slowly dropped around 12 pounds. Sure, overall I have more that I would like to lose and I’d love to develop some muscle tone and endurance in my recumbent biking. Overall, as much as I’d like to do this at my pace, my only option is to do this at the pace that POTS allows. So I might have good days where I feel almost a bit strong, and I might have a period of a week at a time where making it to the bathroom or the couch is a challenge.
All I can do is to keep moving forward. I will have good days and bad days, but I’ll keep working on this goal of mine because I am in fact making progress.
In Other News
Tomorrow is game one of the playoffs for the Penguins. The Oilers and the Maple Leafs are in the playoffs. I don’t remember the last time that happened so that should be fun to watch.
We’ve decided to wait and breed Maizy in the fall which will mean Spring time will be baby goat time, which I can’t wait to share with each of you.
I’m going to a fancy ‘high tea’ tomorrow, which is exciting.
I might have gotten a new fun piercing over the weekend. Should I share about it and show pictures?
I hope this post finds you all doing well and smiling! The dogs have talked me into going outside to play and let the goats out. So I’m off to take pills and head outside with another cup of coffee!